Sometimes I wonder if all my issues revolving self worth are societal in origin. For example, I just read an article about moose/elk, and the first sentence read “european elk are often smaller […] than their american counterparts…”.
I read it as “smarter”. So at first I thought “oh goddamn it can’t we at least have more intelligent MOOSE in this country?”.
Which then led me down the path of being upset that, even though I am considered smart by most evaluations, I am afraid of claiming my nationality is American. Cuz you know, hurr, Americans are stupid.
Which then unfurls the binding on my rage.
Stereotypes are probably the worst thing about humans. I am tired of feeling alien to other people because of history.
I’m sick that we, as a species, will never be around long enough to shift the shitty way we treat each other and ourselves out of vogue.
I have so little hope, it’s very disheartening.
And it’s not even a lack of hope for my personal success. I have no hope for this world.